I have PTSD , Chronic grief & depression for which I am receiving counselling and on anti-depressants. I seem to be really stuck in a deep rut and can't see a way out. I having some really bad flashbacks from a long time ago, which make me want to scream and cry, but my emotions are stuck inside and choking me. This and my inability to cope with day to day things is making me get angrier with myself. I find it hard just to get up.
Have you ever been through this? What did you do to cope or get through it? How do I let it all out?
I would really appreciate any helpful suggestions and answers. Thanks.
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When I feel that way in the morning, I get up, have a shower and put on nice clothes. If I do this, I know I look better and so I feel better. There are some chores I find easier than others, such as doing laundry. Recently I have been sorting through old craft supplies to give away. It doesn't matter what you do, but keep going. Sometimes going for a walk is a little too difficult, but sometimes I take my camera and go into my backyard and take pictures. If you keep busy and can say that you accomplished something it will go a long way towards your self esteem. If the lethargy gets you down in the afternoon watch a movie or try reading a book, as long as it isn't violent. (I like a comedy.) Anything where you don't have to concentrate on the plot or characters to enjoy it.
Just relax.
Buy a diary and write down everything that you want to say. Then you'll be able to assess how you feel and maybe it may trigger emotion (crying).
What you need to really do though is cry, i was depressed for weeks and when i cried it helped! Also cry with someone, the feeling someone is there with you gives you that extra strength you need when you are down!
that happens to me a lot. i get so frustrated. it would all be so much easier if i could just get it all out. what i do is stab paper. violent? haha yea. but its better than me cutting myself. eventually i cry. somethings that may help are music and drawing. try and get your mind off of it. good luck.
I don't have PTSD but I have felt the way you describe.
I suggest you find a counsellor or a therapist that can help you express your feelings.
It sounds to me that you may want to let it all out. In your own privacy, scream, cry, punch a pillow, etc...
It is better to let it out than to keep it bottled up.
Only, make sure you and others around you including pets don't get hurt when you are in your tantrum mode.
I also have those things. I am better now thank god. For awhile I thought I was going to loose my mind. The anger and need to scream was just to bad. Sometimes I would go outside in a downpour and just yell and yell. Odd I know but it helped. Other times I would go to the garden, take a hoe and hack the heck outta those weeds. The thing is I did find someway to get it out. Now its not as bad, so I go on long walks, swim, listen to music etc. If you need someone to talk to I am here and will be glad to hear from you.
Excercise helps. (say's he, slouching across the sofa at the laptop, as usual..)
i never let anyone in...and i just scream and cry, like yourself. what i do is not healthy...which is drink and smoke cigs...so i dont suggest my way at all.
go to a spa for a week! thats what i would like to do!
good luck
I really feel for you, I suffer from depression. my husband is no help and often sends me further into depression. I have found in the past a new job forced depression out of me as it gave me a new direction and something else to turn my energy's too. also having 'me' time, my children stay at there nans once a week. this has helped heaps. At my worst I was just full of anger, stress and I think frustration. I used to shout but felt it was getting me no where so I turned to self hurt. i went to doctors when I done this self hurt in front of my children who in turn were mortified. best advice, change your direction, and stick to the counselling. I hope this has been of help to you. good luck.
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